Cutting the cord

I have come to realize I am not a fan of the corporate world.
I always wanted to be. I always thought, you do the best job you could and you get paid for it.
It was never that simple. In fact I found more times than not trying to make that ideal work for me caused me more headaches than happiness.
I did the corporate hierarchy and the safe womb of steady paychecks and benefits for 15 years.
It gave me this deception of being "Safe" But it was far from it.
A victim of company closures, unexpected layoffs, and shipping poor products for reasons beyond my control. I soon discovered I could not convince myself to get back on the horse and try again.
I could not convince myself that the next project was going to be the one.
I could not convince myself that uprooting my family again in less then 2 years was a necessity.
But what was my alternative? My family and I had adapted a lifestyle the was fed by the Corporate umbilical cord.  The idea that I could actually survive without some company taking care of me seemed absurd.
Many long days and sleepless nights trying to figure out how to be able to make the art I want to make and not allow my family and our world to fall apart.
To be fair, as I am writing this, I am thinking does talking about this support my intent of this blog? What does it have to do with art and being an artist?
It is all these factors that allow me to justify this absurd leap. I had to dive deep down and find a part of me that was both so passionate about painting and making art. But also I had to tap into the deep frustration and anger I had with trying to fit in to the corporate world.
I had to believe in my work and myself enough to take the big risk.
I am not sure I have made the right financial decision, but for the moment I can still pay the bills.
I am tired, it is really hard work. But I also find I am enjoying it. Everyday is a new adventure.
I am gaining more confidence in my own abilities every day. I am also growing more as an artist.
I promise we will talk more about art. I just needed to clear that out of my head 1st

-Grimbro